Growing up, if I didn't hit the hay before 9 I was a miserable person. If I went to bed at 9, I was usually bright-eyed and bushy-tailed by 6 am. Meeting my husband seemed to change all that as he was a night owl, but we've reversed roles. When he's home at night (he works nights during the week; I'm talking about the weekends or days he has off), he's usually in bed by 730pm. Then he wakes up about 5 or 6 ready and rearing to go. Me ... I usually force myself to bed around 4 and am dragging at 6 and 7 am because I haven't had enough sleep. The whole day just drags; eyes slogging, head bobbing, and the occasional neck jerk when I realize I've been snoring (dozing). But when I get home around 8, though I'm physically tired, I'm not mentally tired. I sit at my son's laptop or my PC and I do things for 4CP, or I write, or I social network, or I catch up on current events. Before I know it, it's chasing 330 am and I literally have to force myself to bed. This ends up meaning, for the four days I've done this this week, I've had a total of (maybe) 8 hours sleep.
Sheesh ... you'd think with my being up all that time that I would've been at least productive with my writing, but no ... I wasn't. I'm struggling. I can't seem to hear my muses and it could be from lack of sleep. My whole vacation (those 10 days from July 1 to July 10th) I went to bed at 4 and slept until my littlest one woke up, usually around 11. The two older children had slept over other family members homes or played quietly in their rooms after getting themselves breakfast (usually a bowl of rice krispies). Then during the day, when the kids and I weren't doing some kind of activity or when we weren't out and about, I'd write up into the wee hours of the morning.
I was so inspired I wrote a short story, but then as my vacation drew to a close, I couldn't hear my muse anymore. It was like she knew I was going back to work, so she was trying to prepare me to have that frame of mind.
Well ... I want her back! I want to finish that short story and have it included in the Dream On anthology that 4CP is publishing this year. I want to pick up Sensing Evil again and get those short stories finished and ready for publication this fall. I want to ask Sunny and Michael (Sunny's fledgling angel) what's going on in their lives and pick up From Heaven again. It breaks my heart that I haven't listened to (or seen) little Meredith from The Last Curl whispering sweetly in my ear.
Why, dear God, why can't I write?
Now off the topic of me being practically dead to the world from lack of sleep, and having absolutely no inspiration to pick up any of my stories because of this sleeping issue . . . Did you all know my 10 year old son's children's book is now available to purchase online? If you didn't know, all the royalties from his book will be going to Habitat for Humanity. You can pick up the Kindle version, Nook version, Trade Paperback (Barnes & Noble, Amazon, or Direct from the publisher, World Castle Publishing), Kobo version, or whichever eBook version you prefer (Smashwords) for a really low price.
He's garnered some really great reviews over on those sites and was ecstatic when Karen (his publisher), mailed him a letter showing a copy of the check she had mailed to Habitat for Humanity for his June sales - a whopping $20 and change! For a end of June release, that - I think - is really great! I just hope the momentum continues and the sales skyrocket - not because he's my son, but because a 10 year old who wanted to do something GOOD, and that should be rewarded (by seeing royalty checks that could've been his, go to such a great cause).
Speaking of Cameron's book, we've been trying to draw attention of people who have a voice in the nation to help with promoting Cameron's book and ultimately the charity. Important voices that can make a bigger difference than little old me. Both Cameron and I have e-mailed and chatted with some really great people who have really helped spread the word. Authors Sean Sweeney aka John Fitch V, David H. Burton, Maria Hooley, G. R. Holton & Larry Enright have been absolutely WONDERFUL and we genuinely appreciate everything they've done for us! Rob and Krissy, we absolutely *heart* you both! Thank you so much for everything!
If you have spread the word and I have failed to mention you, I am sincerely sorry! I've been trying to keep track of who has been helping us and I don't want you to feel as though we don't appreciate you - because we do. Every little bit helps! Thank you all so very much!
Well I must end for today. Unfortunately I didn't prepare anything for Flash Fiction Friday - I've been slacking ... so unacceptable! Hopefully my muses will sing for me this coming week while I'm on stay-cation at home, and hopefully get enough sleep to no longer be the walking dead (all I can picture is the SpongeBob episode where SpongeBob and Mr. Krabs think they've killed the health inspector for giving them a 'tainted' krabby patty). Have a wonderful weekend, and I'll try to post more soon.